So it’s not enough for a girl to be good looking, sweet, nice, down to earth, friendly, funny.. no, a girl has to be seductive, bitchy at times, high maintenance, and snobby.  A guy who calls me his best friend, knows me in and out, has complimented me and my looks a million times claims that I am not girlfriend material because I am too goofy. He says that I am the most beautiful girl he has known, he claims that I am the most practical, nice and funny girl he knows, that I am unlike any girl he has ever met, but I am not girlfriend material because I am too goofy.. I am down to earth, I don’t expect or assume, I give everyone the benefit of the doubt, I am nice.. but I am not girlfriend material? Is it because I am nice, is it because I don’t expect anything in return? Is it because I have a sense of humor that matches that of many guys? What is it?? 

I am independent, assertive, secure, and self sufficient. I don’t need any guy to take care of me, yet when I let that known, he gets offended. If a guy is having a nice time in a bar without crossing the line and somebody tries to tell him what to do, he would not tolerate it either, then why is it such a noble deed to try to tell a girl what to do just because she is having a moderately good time? I was under the assumption that being independent and self sufficient is a good thing, then why are these guys getting offended if I am adult enough to take care of myself? 

I don’t understand. All qualities I thought made me a good and capable girlfriend to some lucky guy are in fact qualities that guys just say they want in girls, not want them really. Guys secretly desire girls they can spoil, girls who boss them around, girls who stop them from doing guy things and take them to watch chick flicks. I was just being myself, laid back yet strong willed, but what is so wrong in this? Why do guys love me at first glance but back off after learning about my strong feminist views and laid back sense of humor? Why then do I become one of the guys or not girlfriend material?

I want to fall in love. Yes, there is an ex ready to spend his life with me, yes there’s the possibility of staying happy with him, but is it so wrong to wish for that fantasy? The love that starts off a fire, the chemistry so intense, where everything just clicks, is perfect! I want it, I’m 23 years old and I’m ready to start the next chapter of my life, the most amazing chapter possible! Why should I settle for anything less? Why is it not happening? Why is everybody either settling or whoring their life away? I’m ready for my prince, and I want him now!

Is perfection really that difficult to find? Good job, ambition, broad mindedness, cultural, normal good looks, educated, good sense of humor, assertive yet romantic and finally believer in equality yet chivalrous.. Are these qualities too much to ask for? They’re not extreme qualities, just a little bit of all important qualities. I’m not asking for a Brad Pitt in combination with Indiana Jones and brains of Einstein, just a sprinkle of all the good flavors, not too much of anything. Oh yeah, did I forget to mention, Indian?

Damn Smartphones!